Commitment?
Dec. 3rd, 2004 09:20 pm![[personal profile]](https://www.dreamwidth.org/img/silk/identity/user.png){kind=small}
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I think--I THINK--I've finally made a commitment to learning to draw. *gasp!* Astounding!
I have so, so, so many ideas for drawings for my stories but I have negative 30 talent, and I've never had the will nor the patience to try to learn. I know it takes an awful lot of practice to get good, and considering I have no talent to start with it will take even more practice. But I think I might be willing to try and actually commit to it this time. The problem before has been that writing has always come first, but Alch. is finished for the time being, Penta shifts in and out of stagnation, and all my other projects have been cryogenically frozen until such time that they can be brought to life. It's been a while since I really set myself to something too, and this is something I know will actually benefit my life.
However...
I have a terrible history of laziness. I'm not ashamed to admit it--I'm very lazy. I'm a procrastinator. And I'm terrible with commitments. I made a commitment to learning violin and that lasted about six months. I made a commitment to take writing classes and never got around to it. I've made several commitments to eat better, bike ride every day, excercise, and each one (obviously) has failed.
But I really, really want to draw this stuff in my head. I think I might be able to pull it off this time. Maybe. A very, very big maybe. I'm certainly going to try. I'm just going to have to keep reminding myself of how much I want to draw and also remind myself not to give up just because I totally suck. Which I will, probably forever, but if I can manage to get even one of my characters on paper and be satisfied with it I'll have done good. I have to tell myself that it'll take a lot of practice and a lot of patience. I guess we'll see if I have enough of the latter.
I think--I THINK--I've finally made a commitment to learning to draw. *gasp!* Astounding!
I have so, so, so many ideas for drawings for my stories but I have negative 30 talent, and I've never had the will nor the patience to try to learn. I know it takes an awful lot of practice to get good, and considering I have no talent to start with it will take even more practice. But I think I might be willing to try and actually commit to it this time. The problem before has been that writing has always come first, but Alch. is finished for the time being, Penta shifts in and out of stagnation, and all my other projects have been cryogenically frozen until such time that they can be brought to life. It's been a while since I really set myself to something too, and this is something I know will actually benefit my life.
However...
I have a terrible history of laziness. I'm not ashamed to admit it--I'm very lazy. I'm a procrastinator. And I'm terrible with commitments. I made a commitment to learning violin and that lasted about six months. I made a commitment to take writing classes and never got around to it. I've made several commitments to eat better, bike ride every day, excercise, and each one (obviously) has failed.
But I really, really want to draw this stuff in my head. I think I might be able to pull it off this time. Maybe. A very, very big maybe. I'm certainly going to try. I'm just going to have to keep reminding myself of how much I want to draw and also remind myself not to give up just because I totally suck. Which I will, probably forever, but if I can manage to get even one of my characters on paper and be satisfied with it I'll have done good. I have to tell myself that it'll take a lot of practice and a lot of patience. I guess we'll see if I have enough of the latter.
