Do You Suppose that I Would Come Running?

[talkingsoup]

This is the week from the deepest reaches of hell. Four major papers due, three of them within the next few days, not to mention response-type papers sprinkled in there just for kicks. This one essay has bee absolutely fighting me for the past week. Usually essays are a breeze for me, but every once in awhile one like this will come along. It doesn't matter how motivated I am or how much research I've done or whether the topic is interesting--it just doesn't want to get written, and the end product is essentially a bunch of words vomited onto a sheet of paper. I went to bed at 6 in the morning last night, and I don't expect to get more than 7 hours between now and Friday.

I also don't have a job yet, and I really don't have time this week to even call the one place I've turned in an application to, never mind fill out the forty-fucking-minute applications for Borders and Barnes and Noble. Never mind that, unlike past years, I need a job in order to survive. Welcome to the world, right?

On top of it all, a kid is dead.

I didn't know him at all, but he was a Writing major, a freshman, and he was found on campus in the same pond that we released a goldfish into three years ago. Maybe it's because this is the first time a student has died on campus since I started coming here and he was found maybe 200 yards from the apartment, or maybe it's because we've been calling it Buster's Pond because of that stupid goldfish, but this just makes everything else seem so ridiculous and unimportant and weird. I just want to go walk in the woods and clear my head but I can't even do that. And to think, they've been searching for him all over for the past two days, with helicopters even, and all that time he was just waiting in that pond.

I feel stupid for caring so much and stupid for just wanting to work on my papers and stupid for acting like it means something that it was Buster's Pond. And I feel stupid for putting all of this here because I don't have time to actually talk to someone.

I'm starting to hate this campus. I don't even feel safe here anymore.

At least I'm getting a kitty on Friday.

Comments

[(Anonymous)]

Oh pre-Finals Week. Never ceases to destroy souls.

I wonder what happened to the kid. Did he fall in? Was he killed accidentally and dumped there? Was he killed purposefully and dumped there? With all of the recent incidents, I wonder if there's a crime epidemic on the rise all of a sudden and what could be causing it if there is. Things are getting pretty scary around here. Hopefully it won't stay over the summer.

Jobs are a bitch. I'd recommend applying to the Hollywood Video stores nearby. They're usually kinda desperate from what I hear. How much income would you need to make to support yourself over the summer?

Yay kitty! Please post pics for epic cuteness.

[ddrussianinja.livejournal.com]

That was me by the by.

[talkingsoup]

Heh, I gathered as much.

I hear that some new information has come to light, but I don't know what that information is. They tend to keep things under wraps with this kind of stuff. But who knows. He was supposedly mildly drunk when he left the people who saw him last, but drunk enough to fall into a pond and not be able to get out? Did he hit his head, maybe? Could it have been suicide, even? Or was it something much more violent than that? And you're right--more crimes have happened this year than any other year I've been here. This was a safe campus a few years ago. What the hell happened?

I'm thinking about Hollywood Video, though I'm not sure what they'll think of a former Blockbuster employee applying there (why the hell isn't there a Blockbuster around here?) At any rate, I still have so much work to get done, so I don't even have time to think about where I should apply. I'm going to call Brotchen this weekend as a follow-up.

And yes, I'll definitely be posting pictures :3

[ddrussianinja.livejournal.com]

This has most of the new information: http://theithacan.org/am/publish/news/200805_Student_remembered_for_insight_and_intellect.shtml

So it seems like he just fell in and drowned. I doubt it was suicide. Most suicidal people make a spectacle out of it for one thing and for another, drowning is a really difficult way to commit suicide. The article says the police ruled out foul play and he didn't have any visible injuries, which is just weird. Maybe he passed out or something. Did you read my entry about my iPod? What's with people? I've pretty much lost my trust for the campus community now.

They probably wouldn't mind that you used to work at Blockbuster, in fact they'd probably be more likely to hire you for that reason. And the reason there isn't a Blockbuster here is because there are already two Hollywood Videos and video stores don't make as much money as they used to, so they're probably going to focus their future expansion more towards the digital realm to continue to compete with NetFlix.

Best of luck with your work, see you at ASIC.

[talkingsoup]

Thanks for the link. And now the autopsy report is saying it was indeed accidental. I just, I don't know. It's such a shallow pond, and the sides aren't all that steep. If he just fell in--unless he hit his head--he could have easily gotten out. And no, I haven't read that entry! But I guess I'm getting out of here just in time, huh?

Hm. Might be worth it to check Hollywood out then.

*goes to read the entry*